Rocky Road & Being You

Don’t get all weird, like "here she goes on an idealistic cheerleader 'Ra-Ra-Go Team'" rant but today…

I am grateful.

I am simply to my core immensely thank for (not necessarily in order of any value or context):

  • being married to Aqua-Man.
  • relationships that challenge me. (I can be hostile about this also.)
  • my home
  • for temptation
  • for suffering
  • my beautiful children and they have a village of people that care for them
  • my trainer Jill, that pushed me to the edge of failure this morning (And that I did not round house kick her, hence “temptation.”)
  • the woman that flipped me off on highway 5
  • grace
  • beautiful people
  • that the laundry is done (If only for a few hours.)
  • the desire to create
  • being tested
  • opportunity to choose (I did give her the bird back.)
  • feeling loved
  • simply being

Where ever you are, for whatever you are feeling, for any struggle or challenge that you may be experiencing I pray that you are overcome with the essence of who are today, who you have been and for who you are to become.

Today I choose gratitude for being alive, and YOUR unique intrinsic indispensable qualities that live in you…your being.

Be you.

Oh and one more thing…

I am thankful that a rocking 5 star hotel with rocky-road ice cream with extra warm marshmallow sauce and toasted walnuts, with whip cream on top is in my future.

Who are you and what are you grateful for?

Peace, Love and (while wearing super cute cheerleader skirt) give yourself a T-H-A-N-K—Y-O-U!


Monday Greetings from Planet Wedding


When I was a kid, I used to love the first day of school.  There is hope and possibility in firsts.  Firsts feel like being at the starting line.  Here is where dreams, hope and possibility live. This is also where adrenaline and excitement is at an all time high.  Often this is the driving force that propels us into uncharted territory.   Just when we should be terrified, the abundance of hope and faith launches us right into outer space. We can plan, strategize, calculate, train, and prepare but truthfully, we don’t know what is really out there.  We cannot predict it.  We can’t actually see the result, but yet we still take off.

For me Mondays and Weddings are like starting lines; fueled by an overwhelming love for possibility.

Today, I am alive in possibility and dreaming big.

Whether you are starting your week; a new work out program;  a new business or planning a wedding, remember that even though you maybe at the starting line, you are not in a race.  You have just stepped up to the beginning of something that lives deep inside your heart, something that is bigger than you! It is your future, your destiny, and your starting line.  Be intensely aware of this moment for this is truly all have.  You will never get this moment back.  Feel everything, from the beating of your heart to the palm of the one you love. Take it all in.  Bask in it.  Roll around in it.  Giggle.  Laugh.  Breathe it in.  Feel what it feels like to be on the edge of something so beautiful you can’t wait to step into it.

Welcome to the starting line.

Go slow, it’s not a race.

Let your joy, hope and love propel you into the wild and crazy dreams that live inside of you.

Imagine, how big that is.  It is astronomical!

What are you dreaming about today?

Peace, Love and Space Travel,


What is Haunting You?

Stare down those things that haunt you.

I wrote my “haunts” down. (I am visual.)

Start with the one thing that you feel drawn to intuitively. Perhaps it is simple or something you feel you can check off your list. (I like lists.) Maybe it is a process or a practice you need to adopt.  Or something you just know you must stop or let go of.  Peel back the layers, one at time.  Stay in the moment at each turn or peeling.  Let go of the need for others to see you or endorse your journey.  When control or fear arises, acknowledge it, without judgment.  Take a deep breath and allow yourself to feel where in your physical body that it may be coming from.  This is the where that ghost lives.   Ask yourself what that pain needs.  Woo or romance that ghost.  Like you would comfort a small child.  My idea of comforting children is buying them an ice cream.  You will see how that worked out for me later.

How you hold and care for yourself, will be different from others.

Ghost Busters

By giving up the need of admiration from those around us, this means our excursion is free of needing something from them.  Thus, we are propelled by our own desires and results without some sort of universal kick back.

Wading through Ghost Poop

Here is what “staring it down” looks like in my simple life.

I am shamed by the feeling like I was not in the best physical shape that I could be.

I have many excuses about why.

I want to be seen and approved of.  So I asked myself, “Why do I need to be seen?”

The dim timid voice says (after wading around in my crap for a while and hopefully Journey’s; Don’t Stop Believing is playing in the background) says, “SEE YOURSELF!”

This is my “O” moment. (Hi Oprah, I love you!)

I wanted others to see me.  I wanted to control.  I was afraid that I was not good enough. But the truth was, I was ashamed. May be I shouldn’t have been.  May be to someone else it did not look that way.  But it was my shame, and mine to stare down.  My very own pile of poop to see.

Code Brown

When a kid poops in a public pool, us parents know that it is called a “code brown.”  Code brown is when no one can go it the pool for 24 hours while it is being disinfected.

My code brown realized, was to SEE myself.

My mission: a full on commitment to swim into the unknown of a 90-day weight loss, fitness and health challenge.  The proverbial, cleaning up my CRAP act.   While I am in the midst of staring down shame, which is a moment-by-moment practice of obedience and discipline, I am amazed by what happens when you are required to watch that turd float around in the pool.

While the physical has been vainly off the hook good for me (and Aqua-Man insert *snicker, blush and giggle*), the most valuable by products of this voyage have been increased faith and spirituality, freedom, clarity and wisdom.

Wanting a martini, milk shake and a French Fries seems pretty insignificant right now.

16 days to mission accomplished.

What’s your code brown?

Peace, love and being full of it…