In a couple days...One of my deepest desires and dreams is coming true. May I be honest, with you?
Will you judge me? Perhaps this is the time that I finally stop worrying, and start talking. I think there may be a few of us out there. Perhaps you will relate. Who is "us?" We are the ones with deep, heart-aching dreams and desires pretending to live while hiding some of our most glorious truths.
I know, you think I am brave. I am not.
I haven't been since birth. Scared. Apprehensive. A late bloomer. Still am, and probably always will be. Stories of how I was scared of strangers as a child still run rampant at the holiday dinner table.
Today, I am in my normal state right before something big happens: conflicted, scared, and excited.
I am diving into the unknown, and what is worse I have several other women that are joining me. I asked them to follow their heart, to be brave, and for no logical reason, except to be led by something bigger than themselves. They are willfully joining me on a once-in-lifetime adventure half way around the world, in the middle of the Aegean Sea.
Welcome to Greece. I did not think of logistics, reasonable expectations, or allow my head to start dragging my body around. Otherwise, this experience would never happen. Still, all the questions ran through my brain. Tedious things like, travel times, ferrying to a remote island, language barriers, safety, terrorists, family stuff, blah blah blah ...
Also there were those more first world, ego kind of questions such as what if no one wants to go, what if I invest all this time and effort and it’s a failure, what if I suck... Ugh, the list goes on.
I pressed into my heart and my body. I chose every detail to be created out of fun and desire. (Holy crap Christian friends, hold the door, she said the D word.) DESIRE? Is that flesh? Oh my. Fleshy, flesh, flesh. F-L-E - E- S -c S - H!
Maybe? Every part of my body and internal Holy Spirit longs for Greece, connecting with myself and other women. Greece is where the Goddess is and is highly favored. Since Goddess resonates with me and the current season of my life, that is where I will go.
Why Goddess? Because I believe that God is in all of us. God looks not at male or female, but at that heart of a human. My religion is love. And just because I am striving to embody the full feminine version of me, doesn’t mean that I don’t love men. I do.
Right now, I simply want to transform into who I am created to be: a fully empowered female living and unraveling within a masculine driven culture. Struggling and muscling through life does not work for me anymore. Our "just do it" culture, feels inauthentic. It is time that every woman, every Goddess, rises into the full glory of her eternal natural wisdom and beauty. My desire is for every woman (and man) to be set free and for the truth to rise in all of us. So that we can achieve a full integration of body, mind and spirit in every aspect of our lives. But first, we all must deconstruct a culture of lies and rise a culture of sisters.
Goddess Rising in Greece: Reclaiming Your Body, Business and Love Retreat is about to happen!
Amen, Awoman, Peace out, Namaste ...and thank you for sending me big bold love as I drop into the unknown.
With pleasure as a fully embodied woman,
(By the way, I made these beautiful gift bags for all my Goddesses because it made me feel good. I love to honor and spoil people. There is room for all my love languages in my work. This feels right. So this is where I will start.)